Saturday, December 27, 2014
Stop @ 8:37 AM
cause today is reflecting time for the whole year..weather to be thankful or to be sad.. i just going to write it out with what i feel about this year,,
to start by buddy.. this gal have been my buddy for more than 7 years.. if u were to ask me.. are we close i dare not say we are really close but i sure we support each other choose and thinking.. i dont know since when buddy have slowly change the thinking and we no longer can read each other mind that much.. maybe out of 100% when we start of as good friend.. now i can only read her mind 50%.. but to be truth.. sometime i wonder will our friendship stop there some year ahead or will it continue to go down this road.. i dont know is it cause when we grow old changing of mind make us drift away or was it all along like that..to be very truth some time i think we only manage to be close when we need some support ..but some time when we are in happy mood we seldom meet and this year to sum up.. i think 1 meet her less than 20 time..is not that we got no time meet or anything .. is just that we never thought of each other i think.. and to be truth..even thought we never meet..she still look the same to me.. a friend who lent me ear when i need.. and support me one way or another..other than thanks buddy for being there for me when i down ..i got nothing more to say.. but infect i think when i grow up abit here and there..i think i slowly wont tell her my feeling trying to face it myself.. cause i know is time for me to grow.. well to buddy message is always the same.. dont be too hard on urself..if not u lose urself when counting the bad...
and here come my skool mate for over the pass 3 year.. to say this the group that i put in most effect to keep them as a group of close friends.. but ever since we walking different path.. i seem to have been left behind.. i dont think is i think too much but cause they have prove me so.. when i start to slowly let everything to be less important.. the more far i am away from them.. but that is a fact that cant be change.. but i got no regert knowing and having them as my friends.. cause i know they are my joking pill some time.. but all i can say.. one day we might be far away from each other..but i still i hope we can always meet out.. there sad alot sad time in my heart that i cant say and u all cant read..but that might be my own problem ..but i sometime i just feel tired on holding this kind of friendship..i know there is alot of things is fect i cant change..but i never give up this friendship yet.. but have u all?? all i wanna say about this group of friends is that i can feel that i losing it slowly already..but i really hope it come any soon..well everyone play apart to stay close..but is time to see what it left .. everyone is leaving skool soon ..but i hope we always the same.. and always have fun tgt.. i thankful for everyone present over the years..
and so come to the 91st gals.. to say what lei.. i just glad that i born in the year same with u all.. and grow up tgt.. but to be very frank.. i no longer feel that we that close anymore.. and i am sure some of us in this group do feel the same.. we are all very busy with alot of things.. but at the same time..we slowly forget each other closeness .. but when ever we meet..we still the gossip non stop friends.. i glad over the year we grow up.. but at the same time i am sad that we are too busy with alot of things.. i just hope some day we can be less busy and get back to where we use to be.. but well i gusse this year is good for all of us.. and i thankful for everyone of you..
and here come to the last person in the whole year i am thankful of.. to be she is important .. so important that i scare to lose here one way or another.. but to be very truth that i really dont think i worth any of her good.. cuase i never believe that i am a person that people like her will ever like me.. i got nothing good on me.. am i right.. how can someone like her like me?? all year question i ask myself.. asking me why do i suffer when i can be with someone better?? but what i thinking is..other than u .. who in this world will ever see me.. and accpect me for me.. to me she is the gal that worth all my thinking to come to a word call love.. she gid me to the light when i feel so helpless..she is there to see my happy and sad..and she is always there and never say no when i need someone.. she let me learn so much on her.. from a lousy me to a better me..she always say she in not perfect and not the right one to me..but i will always be sure she is the right one.. cause is she who never leave me when i am sad.. never forget to weakness the happy time when i hope to see her weakness it..i spent the whole year trying to learn everything from her.. seeing how perfect this human infront of me are.. this is how perfect she is to me.. no one going to change the mind of me.. or how i wanna see this lady in front of me.. cause she is the only lady that make me give up everything and think worth it.. but actally she never ever ask me give up anything before.. hahah..
from a lousy me to today for who i am.. without this lady..there wont be me..
yes we walk down sad we walk pass happy.. but if u were to ask me is it worth it.. i always tell u worth..cuase there is so much words than i can say about her..like i will exchange everything to have her.. ermm..how should i put it in words.. all i got to say.. she my love and special someone i always want...
cause there is too much i dont know how to say already,.. but i sure this lady know what i trying to bring across..
okk here is the end of people i wanna thanks for the year..
