Stop @ 11:50 PM
back from malaysia ytd le... but reach singapore already vey late so i never post blog...
time just seems to pass of fast when in malaysia can... haissss... this time go back... never really want to alot place..but we spent alot time talking our staff and alot more...
everythink seems to be back on track when i am in singapore...
and i know i have to spent more time in study le...
if not my exam will die le... hahahaa
after so long... "C" did not see silly gu.."C" seems to miss silly gu so much...
this time round "C" go back malaysia le.. "C" want to a party with her friend and cousin...
it was a fun night with her friends and cousin around...
is was fun spending so much time in looking for shirt and pants for the party...
playing some water at friend and cousin house fun too.....
At the party that night... "C" want to the party with her friends and cousin..when "C" reach the place..."C" seems to be looking around and thinking where is silly gu... when she walk into the hall she saw silly gu le... she is happy at that moment...hahaha...
The whole party that night..."C" was keep looking around for that silly gu... and thinking will silly gu walk towards her and chat with her... or will silly gu walk towards and smile to"C" ma.... cause they have not seem each other for so long..
so "C" miss silly gu smile..
but silly gu did not walk over or smile to "C" that night....
cause silly gu was busy with her own thinks...
even thought "C" was a bit sad that she did not get a chance to talk to her...
but than she did not show it out... whole night she was siting at a corner....
once "C" got the chance she will look around for silly gu and thinking is silly gu is behind not...
when "C" always look behind she will saw silly gu de... so "C" is happy...
during the party "C" walk pass silly gu and saw her.. she feel like talking to her.. but she never...
at the party "C" saw silly gu dance le... and this is the 1st time "C" saw silly gu dance... so she was quite happy de... cuase all along she wanna come back and support silly gu dance de..
after the party.. "C" want to drink tea with few of her friends..
at that moment when she is drinking tea... no reason..she suddenly think of silly gu le..
again she sit in one corner and think of silly gu.. and keep in her heart...
few of her friends few wried that why is "C" feeling down at that moment...
no one know why she is like that... only "C" know why she is like that...
sometime "C" wanna tell silly gu so much thinking but than she dont know how to ask...
so she choose to keep quite and never saw anythink...
silly gu meet out with the gals and "C" le... silly gu mood seems to be quite sad that day...
so "C" asked her... wad happen and why she is not happy... at that moment silly gu tell her nothink happen.. she is ok...
even thought silly gu is not happy..
"C" keep trying to make her smile but than silly gu seems to be thinking of other things and never really hear wad "C" talking...
"C" always sense that silly gu is not happy and sad..
and when "C" ask silly gu..
wad happen and why she is sad...
silly gu will always say that nothink have happen... and she is ok....
but she know that silly gu is not ok de...just that dont wanna force her to say it out...
"C" always try her best to disturb her.. and make her smile.. so silly gu wont think so much...
but than "C" always did not make silly gu smile..
but "C" always feel the same pain she is having now.. when she is not happy...
"C" always feel hope less and dont know wad to do...
at that night.. silly gu not happy and cry le... and when she run away...
"C" saw it le.. and wanna run over to her... but than she saw her bf run over le...
so "C" did not go over...
"C" wanna run over and tell her..."HUG"
And tell her...
" sha gu... bu yao ku le... ta men bu dong de zhen xi ni..
shi ta men ban...bu yao wei le ta men bu kai xin hao ma...
wo hui yong yuan zai ni zhou wei de...pei zhi ni de.."
but "C" did not get a chance to say it out...
after that when she walk over to find silly gu... "C" saw her bf le... and she did not walk over... cuase she have no right to walk over...
when silly gu left with bf...
"C" can not longer take it any more... her tear drop down with out reason le...
she cry alot and she suddenly can feel the pain so much... all along she thought she can always hid in a corner to support silly gu de... this is the way"C" like silly gu...and be there for her jiu hao... and this all she can do..
but she never know it hurts so much.. when she saw silly gu left with her bf....
her treas drop with out any reason le.... "C" feel the pain le... and she feel like asking silly gu dont go with her bf... but she never.. cuase she know is impossbile between them de... she sit in the play ground and cry le that day...
when she is walking home to her cousin house... again she cry le .... this time round one of her friend.. xr tell her... ask her to give up ba.. she already have bf le... no point holding on...when she is walking... she was crying.. and she try to stop crying le... but the tears just drop with out any reason...
after that night... next day they meet out everythink seems to be find.. and everythink seems to be ok...nothing much happen...
"C" decide to hid her feeling to herself and never let silly gu know..and keep it to herself de....
but than dont know why she will say it to silly gu in k.box...
after tat day they want to k.box and singing song together...
"C" friends diecide to ask "C" to say all her feeling out to silly gu le.... "C" sing a song that day and say all her feeling to the silly gu le..... after saying "C" cry with out reason le.. she more comfrotable that she say out le...
but there is sill some she did not say out... "silly gu... i have never regret liking you... and i am gald to know you...even thought i know we are impossible... but can be friend with you i already very happy le.. just let me continue be by side jiu hao le... support you jiu hao le... and be there for you can le...我真的没每后会喜欢你。。。。"
when"C" ytd meet out lunch with "C" friends and silly gu... this is the last time "C" saw silly gu le.. she did not say anythink to her... but ask her take care...
when "C" going back singapore... she feel sad...
she think of the pass that she spent time with silly gu... she cry le...
