Stop @ 11:13 AM
i dont know wat feeling do i have now...dont know why i just feel sad now...is it becuase i just make someone angry or is it because i feel tat i chang alot already...change to a person try to act happy when i sad...i dont know i dont know...
i keep asking myself to cheer up and staff ....i feel tried of my life...so tried til a piont tat i feel like mia from this world...i was no where to be see..
you know how long it took me to forget about you and treat you as normal friend... :(but i think til this moment i still got the feeling for you...i dont know how...and wat i should do anymore..everytime when i need you concer...you are not around...and when i hear things from other and wanna find the truth from you...you choose to lie to me...you look so diffren when i 1st know you...i thought u always treat me as a friend...but i think i worse than a friend to you...cuase you just dont wanna care or hear anything tat is happen to me...do you know how much i really hope you can show me abit of ur concer...but you just dont wanna care me...and reply to me...when i always get pace off with it..i keep thinking how good you use to be...and my angry to you will be gone...when i always know tat you are sad..and try to concer you...but you always wont wanna let me have the chance to concer you anymore...even as a friend..i not bleaming u...cuase i know tat there is a reason behind it..this few days i keep thinking of the pass things...about us...when i 1st time saw you was in court...i saw your working so hard for every piont and always cheering ur teammate up make my heart melt..and tat is the time i fall for you...i try my way to contact you and wanna mak friends with you...and tat is how we know each other...when i 1st meet you out was at my skool there mrt...and tat is also the 1st time i send you home...i feel so bad after you go home..cuase i did not talk to you much in the mrt...i regret...the 1st time i wanna hold ur hand and i dont dare...you thought me to hold ur hand if want to...and tat is the 1st time i hold ur hand...at tat moment i feel so blessed tat i can hold ur hand...i dont feel like letting go of it anymore...from tat moment...when i 1st hug you was at the 350 there...when we wait for ur cap to send you home...we hug each other til the cap come...tat is the 1st time tat i hug you til a moment tat i dont wanna you to go off...the 1st time when i cry for you is tat when i going malaysia...cuase of my grandmother things...tat is the 1st time i have a concer and feel so good tat you around with me when i am sad... and i rmb tat is the 1st time you give me ur kiss...when i go malaysia i sms all dose long sms you and tell you how much i actally miss you...tat is the time i feel like going back to singapore and find you...cuase i really miss you alot...and feel like see you at tat moment...when i come back from malaysai the next time we meet was at ur friendly match near our house here...when me go support ur match...but you injury ur self at tat moment..i feel running over and ask are you ok not..but i cant..cause ur couch was there..when after ur game..i go find you i ask u are you ok..and u told me u are ok when ur leg is so swollen..tat is the time when you show me how strong you are..everytime we spent time with each other was so fun and happy..and alot alot more for me to say here..and now everythings have change...you no longer the one i know who is so happy every moment and you no longer so good to me anymore...even if i wanna show u abit of my concer to you..you also dont wish to have my concer...i always wanna treat you as a friend...but is so hard..even how bad you going to treat me...the feeling is there?? i dont know how long i stop my slef for falling for you...and i dont know wat i should do anymore..all i wanna do now is to be there for you if you ever need my help.... :(:(:(:(wr rmb this she is not a good person...i got my reason fro saying this...dnt let urslef get hurt ok...
