Stop @ 12:00 PM
friendly today was bad...i did play well at 1st...but end up cause of somethink my mind was not at court...i was say by pat coach and miss may...they tell me so much so much....i know they wanna me learn from my mistake...so i never really blem them when they saying...but i just feel tat i let the team down and have make them lost the game... SORRY GALS!!!
after match coach and other gals come and chat with me and tell me alot of thinks...say how badly i play...i was sad at tat moment...so after they say.. i want home with the BM people..they was asking me why i so sad...but i act like nothink happen and just walk slowly to the bus stop....i was very sad befor game....til now i still very sad....dont know why....
running running away from all dose trouble....life have never be the same to me....no more happy face can be found...
someone ask me this QN....how long am i going to wait for tat gal....and i reply...willing to wait for her for life...even if one day i know tat is impossible to go back to last time....but i still wait.....she say tat i am a good person...which i dont think so...cause i feel tat i am so useless and i cant even help my family pro..not even basetball...i been playing basketball for so long but i still so lousy...somtime i wonder why i still playing...is it cause tat i dont bear to leave my team....i really dont know....
i miss the 1st hug we have the 1st sms u sent me....the 1st concer u show me...but i no longer have all dose think anymore cause i lose my phone and u....and i lose everythink....nothink will going to come back to me....
qing tain tat song is very nice...i like it...means all the think i wanna say...
i can heardly say anythink anymore....i never wanna tell people wat is happeing to me....i never can go back to last time...i never can be the old me anymore....cause i really dont know wat to do...other than running away from all dose problem is all i can do....
i dont wan to go anywhere now...but to hid in a corner and cry non stop....
tears have been dropping and i just cant control it....ur concer have let me be happy at tat moment...cause i know u still there for me....but happy moment is just for a while....
i back to the start of the point where i dont dare to do anythink but to watch u from far...
hui yi young yuan gen zi wo...wo zhen de bu she de wong le wo men de hui yi....ker yi de hua...jiu reng wo yong yaun pei zi ni....kai xin shen xin hai shi hui you wo.... :(
