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back to post already....mood have been bad....training have been tried...life have been aimless....is the same date...last year i also have this sad feeling...this year i also have....but this year one is much hurting even if i know one day she leave me...but is still so hurting....i dont know wat i should do....but to hid away from all my friends and act nothink have happen to me....every night have been crying but who knows...other than my very colse friends....she have been great to me all this while...but xin fu will never be with me for long....i just feel like running away from all this sad feeling...if i have a chance to go back to last time....i will hold her tight and never to let her go agian...cause i really dont know how to move on without her...can i say i tried of my life and so aimless now....i dont feel doing anythink but to hid in a corner.....
i miss you alot alot....family pro and outside team pro..and other pro have make me dont know wat to do...other than running away...it have been on me for a few week le....but i just dont wan to say to any one..cause i just dont one anyone know...so i been keeping to myself...i now can cry out is cause i know i can no longer take it any more....
it been so long tat i did not meet my big sis le...the moment when i meet her the 1st think is alway will be crying...cause i only go find her when house happen somethink....lao sis house have happen so much think...do u know??? i just hope tat u will still come home for a dinner...cause mummy miss u alot....
i never forget how much joy i have when ah ma is with us...cuase i can still go back and see her and chat with her...i dont know how handle this kind of sad feeling anymore...ah ma...i miss u alot...thought u not with us...but i just hope tat i can find a colse people and cry on her shoulder now....nobody will lead me to a new life other than u...ah ma.... can i say i wanna cry infront of u again...and u will aways sayang me like i am ur kids...
all thinks have come to a end where i dont know wat to do or say anymore...i get to meet her alone and i feel like crying when see her...cause i got so much to tell her and just feel like hugging her and dont let her go...but i dont one her to feel bad so i never one to drop a tears infront of her....we enjoy alot at prata shop...but when sending her home...i was walking very slow cause i dropping tears..but i try to hid it from her...i dont know why i just very bu she de...if time can stop at the moment where i was hugging u and never to let go jiu hao....but time just dont stop at there...
can i say i dont wanna to let go of u...can i??? can i say i need a very very close people to concer me and ket me cry infront of her....and can i just need someone to sayang me like my ah ma...i really really need someone to be with me now.... :(
